OT A SAINT OF THE WEEK BUT A GOOD LIFE LESSON.
About six weeks ago I was enjoying my early morning hike through the woods with my dogs. It was a very chilly October day. So chilly in fact, that it was snowing. I did not mind a bit. I like mornings like that. As usual, I was praying the rosary. I was half way through the Luminous mysteries when my cell phone rang. I know that you are probably thinking: why take your cell phone? Well, two reasons: one is that my home schooled kids are, well, at home and if they need something they can call me. Secondly, I once had an asthma attack and even though I made it home, I feel better having the phone.
So, anyway, my cell phone rang. I paused. The little voice in my head said, "Don't answer it!" I saw that it was my mother. My little voice spoke again, a bit louder this time; all the while Funky town (my ring tone) is playing. The daughter in me over ruled the little voice, I answered. It was just a general "what's up" kind of call.
As we chatted I approached a hill. No, not a hill, more like a cliff since it had about an 80 degree drop. I have been down this hill a hundred times. I started down. It was seconds before I lost footing on the snowy and muddy bank. If you remember the Wide World of Sport 'agony of defeat', I probably looked something like that.
Gasping at the bottom with extreme pain in my right knee I found the phone in the weeds and told my mother that I would call her later (not mentioning the fall of course). I tried to move, but the pain was extreme (this from a woman who had a 10 pound baby!).
I laid there with the snow falling on my face for a while trying to figure out my next move. There were two ways home: back up the hill I had just fallen down and another way which was twice as long but half as steep. I chose the first. I slowly stammered to my feet. My leg was bleeding badly. To this day I don't know how I made it up the hill, but I did. When I got to the road I shuffled from mailbox to mail box. I tried calling my kids but accidentally dialed my husband. Turns out he was not at work yet, but doing an errand nearby. He came home immediately.
After a long day of stitches and x-rays, it turns out that I had no structural damage to my knee. Soft tissue damage, yes, but structurally I was fine. My doctor attributed to the many years of martial arts and the numerous lessons on balance and falling. (Yes we do actually learn how to fall). Maybe so, but I know that something got me back up that hill.
Most of our saints had to learn hard lessons too. But like gold tested in fire, that is how we are formed. I believe that God helps those who help themselves. When bad things happen you can lie on the ground and cry or you can pick your self up and look for help. It may take a while to heal. You might even have a scar, but you will be stronger for the lesson learned.
My lesson? Don't bully your little voice. It's there for a reason.
Closing thought: God's got your back.
Jamie